shoot me

This is frustrating. Whenever I say my tummy is aching or I have a headache no one believes me. It’s not like the boy who cried wolf people…for cyring out loud I can be sick too you know. Not because I’m hyper and super energetic most of the times I dont have the right to be under the weather sometimes. How frustrating when people expects you to smile and be all happy and gay when you feel like your stomach is just eating your other organs inside. Really funny. I hope people can feel what I’m feeling right now so they know how it feels like wanting to barf every minute.

:-(

I am really trying hard to control my mood swings. I’ve never had any tantrums this week. Im trying to be back to normal.

 

But it doesnt give you the right to say those things to me. I have never asked you to report anything to me and you know that. Sana lang you know how your words had hurt me. I dont know if you’re doing it on purpose pero sana if you want to hurt me lang sabihin mo na agad hindi yung kung ano ano pa sinasabi mo sa akin.

Dorota is disappointed…

Oh Blair! What did you do?!?! Why is there a sex video of you doing some footjob on the internet? This would break Dorota’s heart…haaayz.

 

The said video was taken 3-4 years ago when Blair was still a blondie. Yep BLONDE. Anyways…for those of you who wish to view the entire video you need to find the adult porn site and pay $40!

 

Wonder who leaked the videos…errr.

when the unicorns and bunnies are against you

Hmm…I dont know why this is happening to me. I havent offended anyone as far as I can remember. I havent killed any bunnies.

 

No one seems to be there for me. I need someone right now. I am in BIG trouble. HUGE! Yet I dont have anyone to talk to. Or maybe papansin na ata ako. Lahat na lang ng tao walang time para sa akin. Boohoo!

 

I need a bunny.

fickle

I know how to say sorry. I know when to say sorry. So I’m saying sorry now. I know my attitude has been really awful the past few weeks. Im going to stop blaming my hormones and be an adult and own up to whatever I did or whatever mistakes I’ve made.

 

I’m sorry. If I could turn back time I wish I never said those words. I wish my fingers were numb that day so I wouldnt be able to type those blasphemies. I’m sorry and I really miss you.

 

I know I was really at fault. Just to let you know I was willing to give up everything for you. I was willing to wait until you’re alright. I know it’s too late now and that you dont feel the same. I know how tiring it was for you to try to understand my situation.

 

You broke my heart when you told me you dont love me anymore. I was furious because all your promises turned out to be lies. But it doent change a thing. I still love you. Maybe it will go away. Maybe I’ll forget you one day. I just want you to know that you were the best friend I always wished for. I’m sorry if I’ve said some really mean things to you.

 

I hope I can move on from this. I hope that one day I can look at you in the eyes and smile and just be really happy. But it doesnt hurt to wish that you’ll be back. I still wish your here.